Dear Jamie
I love you so much. I don't think I could have a better friend enless it was an angle. Well I guess thats all!
love always
Samantha Jo

This was the letter I was given tonight by Sami, Dan's daughter. I've always have had a soft spot in my heart for kids, but these two kids have really, really, gotten a big part of my heart. Years and years ago I wanted to adopt them. Had it not been for Ray R., I would have. I know now that things happen for a reason, and I'm glad that it didn't happen then. I'm just glad that I can be part of their lives now. I hope that my love and kindness makes a difference in their lives, I knownthem being in mine has made a difference in mine.

Which brings me to my New Years resolutions. This year I really want to concentrate on making myself well mentally. By doing this, I want to release the realtionships in my life that have been holding me back. I feel like I'm only half living. I'm spending too much time on the things that don't matter and not nearly enough time for the things that do.

So, hear this my family, once a month, I want to spend the day with my family. I realized that only seeing my family on holidays sucks. I miss you all, and I've learned there aren't many people in your life that you can depend on, and my family has been a constant.

I have a list of things I want to do, I hope this is one of the things you can help me with.

Christmas

I've felt really bah humbug this year. Until last night. I was in a horrible mood, tired from working and shopping all day and it was midnight and I still had a mountian of presents to wrap. Then I remembered. The giving is my favorite part of the holiday. I've been blessed and it makes me feel wonderful that I can give the people I love something. When I was all finished wrapping, I felt my eyes water looking at the small pile of gifts, and I wanted to triple that pile and give those that I love as much as my bank account would allow.

It's not about making them feel bad because they didn't get me a gift in return, or trying to show them I've got more expendable income. It's about wanting the people I love to have what their hearts desire. Wanting no need or wish go unfullfilled.

I'm happy I get to be with my family today, I hope they know how much I love them.

A little Christmas fun

Click this link...and be creative..

http://www.simonsezsanta.com/

I'm sick and other things

I'm sick. So, I'm home today. I'm sure my boss will be really happy about that. Nothing serious, the dr. just ordered some drugs and a day of rest. Ahh. Right after I finish this blog update, I'm going to take a nap.

I went to court on Monday and it was just as I thought it would be. Scary. The judge entered a not guilty plea for me and put a hold on my tickets until the pretrail or something. I will need a lawyer. So that will not be fun.

I'm feeling bah humbug these days.

I can't think of anything else.

My turn

Ok. First know, I'm ok. Secondly, I don't have a problem. Lastly, I got a DUI last night.

Christmas Tree

Here is my Christmas tree. I know, I should have gotten white cords instead of the green, I'll fix that soon. Anyway, you can't see it, but there are also blue lights on the tree. It looks a lot prettier in the dark.

Those folks below it are the ones who decorated it. My roommate Dan, and his two great kids. They also put presents under it.

Next time, I'll show you Abby in the tree. It wasn't even up before she started to climb up it.